My mothers creative writing journals from the early 80's. The tape impression is funny, especially since it kind of disappeared in the 20 + years. I also quite like them because it makes me feel like there is a bit of her in me. Granted I think she mostly wrote poetry, and I'm more of a creative writing person, but its nice to know that you have something in common. Because it sometimes seem like my brother and my sister have all the attention because my sister is smart, and my brother is probably going to get a cross country scholarship one day because he is that good. I mean those are both things my mom was good at. But knowing that she used to write and take photos makes me feel included too. I wish I had more in common with my dad. I try- but he doesn't take well to me making comments on his photography- and he hasn't done it in forever.

Snows days are for....

Inspired by Hannah Good, who's creativity I am insanely jealous of & large 'bouts of avoiding homework (this is what I do with old converses):

LAME

The 2009 Edition of the "Best of"

Every year I make a list of my favorites.

So yea, here it is. And in comparison to my previous ones, this is pretty pitiful.

MUSIC.

Songs (no order, and well I couldn’t pick between some)

1. The Rake’s Song- The Decemberists (only the Decemberists could make you love a song with this subject matter)
2. Microphone- Coconut Records
3. Nothing to Worry About- Peter Bjorn, and John
4. Ulysses/No You Girls- Franz Ferdinand
5. I Got You Dancing- Lady Sovereign
6. Got Nuffin- Spoon
7. Laughing With- Regina Spektor (it grew on me. I didn’t like it at first)
8. Hello Seattle- Owl City (in my defense, I called Owl City about five months before they hit the airwaves).
9. We Are Golden-Mika
10. Lisztomania/1901- Phoenix (probably my most played song this year)
11. Good Girls Go Bad- Cobra Starship (it’s fun)
12. Aha!/Between the Sheets – Imogen Heap
13. Lollipop (Squeak E. Clean & Desert Eagles Remix) – The Chordettes
14. Hell- Tegan and Sara
15. Crying Lightning- Arctic Monkeys
16. DFTBA – Hank Green (Um, because its just freakin’ awesome)
17. Bang, Bang- Rye Rye & MIA
18. Don’t Stop Believin’ – Glee (ha)
19. Happy up Here/The Girl and the Robot- Royksopp
20. Moth’s Wings- Passion Pit (this is a surprise for me, since I was all about the Reeling/Sleepyhead earlier this year).
21. Daniel- Bat for Lashes
22. I’m on a Boat – The Lonely Islands (brilliant).

23. Walking on the Sun – Empire of the Sun

I should make a top albums list, but that would show you how awful I was with music this year. So I’m just going to mention my favorites out of the few I brought this year: Passion Pit- Manners, Phoenix- Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix, Peter Bjorn & John- Living Things, and Tegan and Sara- Sainthood.

TV

I actually watch a lot of TV… but its British. Uh yea, but I was totally all over the second series of Merlin this fall (I'm waiting to see if NBC will pick it up again this year, if they don't it'll be a shame). I'm still pretty obsessed with Bones. And I still watch LOST, although not as closely as everyone else does. I started watching How I Met Your Mother, and then managed to watch three and a half season within a couple of days. This season has been a little off for me so I hope they do something with that soon. I watch Castle once and awhile because Nathan Fillion is in it. I watch some other shows, but this list will probably become boring so there.

MOVIES

I was actually surprised by the amount of movies I watched from this year, (most of them not in theaters). My favorites were probably Star Trek (it would be wrong not to put this on the list after I saw it like ten times), The Hangover (before you say anything given the genre this was meant to be in, it was actually pretty brilliant), Up (the first ten minutes of this movie was brilliant all on its own), and Sherlock Holmes. I saw a bunch that I thought were “OKAY” but I’d probably never watch again, like The Inglorious Basterds, The Men Who Stare at Goats, and Angels and Demons. With Inglorious Basterds there were elements I really loved, likewise the Men Who Stare at Goats, but over all eh. Angels and Demons was better as a book. In terms of my romantic comedy guilty pleasures The Proposal and the Ugly Truth were instant classics. I saw a ton of other films, but I’m not really going to go into reviews of all that stuff. However I did watch the original first five Star Trek movies this summer. 


Movies I wanted to see? Whip It. New York, I love you. And The Princess and the Frog.

I LOVE CHRISTMAS

1. lights/creeping on other peoples trees

2. our christmas tree/christmas eve service at church

3. out of focus christmas tree/my earrings/my brother

4. stalking santa/my uncle george

5. christmas stuff in new jersey

6. frankie's stories/christmas dinner

'keeping up tradition

self portraits. my front door. in my pjs.

2009

2008

2007

Be My Escape

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

--Relient k