'keeping up tradition

self portraits. my front door. in my pjs.

2009

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Be My Escape

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

--Relient k

Nothing to Worry... or talk about....

Yes, this is Marilyn Monroe tapped to the desk....

Family Picnics, waterfalls, country, country, county...

I've spent the past two days in the middle of nowhere, PA (a hour outside of Pittsburg). And I had an AMAZING time. It's nice to see family you never seen, hang around in country where there are few cars, and beyond awesome scenery. So making lists is easier to describe what happens in my life, here is one!

-I was in nowhereville, PA and managed to find three Hoss’s signs.

-The TUNNELS

-Windmills farm

-omg. the fog/mist off the mountains 'cause of the rain. AWESOME

- You know your in the country when: These building are on the road: house, house, bowling alley, house house, strip club, house house.

- You know your in the country when: hay barrels, hay barrels, hay barrels...

-The path to the water at the park end more weedgrown then before… so not even a chance of getting down.

-Climbing up the kiddie rock wall

-pirate tugboat!

-After party at Aunt Verines house…

-Potatoe launcher!

-Madeline’s new obessions with chartwheels.

-You know your in the country when: you see a fox, a deer, and two skunks within ten minutes of each other because you almost hit them.

-You know your in the country when: being so far in the middle of nowhere you have to drive a half-an-hour/45 minutes away to find a hotel

-Wi freakin fi! In the hotel room

-Falling waters not being as excited as the world makes it out to be… I mean archtectially its brillant, but we all thought the falls went though the house, but it only goes under.

-The falls at Ohioplye State Park… kind of wanting to go rafting now. Well, Ohiopyle, PA!

-Finding a windmill farm of 10 windmills.

-You know your in the country when: I counted over seven abandoned cars.

-Triple AAA sending us on an hour jounery though the country to find the turnpike.

-I saw a covered bridge!

-What's up with the pretty popularied trailer campgrounds in the middle of nowhere?

-You know you’ve spent to long in the country when your excited to see a dinky little gas station with only four pumps.

-You know you’ve spent to long in the country when Somerset, PA is the most happening place you’ve seen in hours.

Quote Of the Day: "Harry Potter is old now. He should be named Harold Potter."

Blue Nails

And here's a picture of my thumb:

Which you may see the nail is very blue. I slammed it into a shelf at work. It's a rather dumb story. I picked up some chocolate sauce. I didn't notice that said chocolate sauce was still pretty close to the shelf when I began to shake it and hit top pretty hard. I can't wait till it falls off, which is probably what's going to happen because I've managed to pull a few layers of the nail off, so there are some craters in my nail.

It's time to leave Disney

Apparently my backyard is that hangout spot for hawks. These three hang out there quite often:

Oscar Wilde

I've been reading some scholarly essays and apparently everything Oscar Wilde has written is about his homosexuality.

Except Salome. That was about sex.